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Sion has the positive feelings that all of Canis gets for Akin, and also thinks he's fairly intelligent and reasonable. He kind of in the back of his mind appreciates Akin's sort of pacifism and wish to avoid harming other things, but is also aware that it's impossible for most people in Sabra to survive like that, so there's a slight hint of the feeling that Akin might not be capable of dealing with some of the tougher decisions/situations. Sion hasn't thought too much at all on that, though, but it's possible it might come up someday.

For Honor, she automatically gets some interest from Sion because she's Ryner's teammate, though he also thinks she's interesting to talk to. Also someone who's fun to drink with is always A++ in Sion's book, and he definitely wouldn't mind drinking with her again sometime. ^_^

...for Masamune I don't think he really had any particularly strong thoughts on Akin beyond the usual teammate loyalties, really.

What would make Akin think he can't trust Sion's judgment on things? As in, what's his reasoning behind that thought process?

Well, one of his memories reinforces the idea that humans are not always the best measure of their own health, and Akin is slightly concerned that, given Sion didn't mention the whole 'constant pain' thing, that he might take shortcuts about his own health. If the pain thing does turn out to be just 'Sion didn't realize this is not normal', he'll assume he was mistaken about Sion's judgement -- or at least it's normal new blank behavior to assume how you wake up is how it should always be.

Yeah, Sion really didn't have any solid idea it WASN'T how he was supposed to feel when he first woke up; it didn't feel right because obviously pain is bad, but he had no way of knowing it wasn't a normal effect of the same thing that made him lose his memories or such. Now he just doesn't like talking about it at length because he prefers to keep his mind off it.

Though on the other hand, with the right memories the whole "humans can't be trusted to make decisions for themselves" thing might actually hit some bad pings for Sion. >_>;;;

Yeah, it's kind of a complicated thing for Akin, since he also thinks that 'humans need to make decisions for themselves, even if they are dumb ones'. So part of him wants to basically swoop in and do what needs to be done, but another part also realizes that won't go over well all the time. So there will be reminders to actually communicate when he's worried about his team's health, rather than just going in without care for what his team thinks*.

* Well, besides a 'shit, they're dying' moment, where he'll probably intervene without thinking it over much and someone might have to drag him away if he's not noticing that he's endangering his own life. Not the only one who can make bad decisions...

Akin should just be glad Sion isn't as bad as he is in canon, so far.... As I was commenting to Ed the other day, I honestly wouldn't be surprised if when he accepted the judges' offer Sion actually DIDN'T expect to survive it. But as long as he got what he wanted, he wouldn't have cared (...and may even have actually preferred it that way).

Yeah... wanting to die would confuse the hell out of Akin, though maybe not when one's choice was 'chronic terrible pain and suffering with no possible cessation' or 'death'. He can understand that.

Hilariously that's probably one of the least of Sion's reasons for possibly wanting to die... a lot of it is really just soul-crushing levels of guilt and self-hate. And having no sense of self-worth. Really, if Akin thinks Sion is bad in Sabra, canon!Sion is just a MESS.

That would... well, must help poor teammate not want to die.

The problem really would come down to convincing him that his own life still has value despite the fact that he's been responsible- whether directly or indirectly- for taking thousands upon thousands of other lives. Whether for a good cause, or to protect an even greater number of lives, or whatever, but in canon Sion still feels guilty and blames himself for each one. Because, well, as probably seen in Sabra, he's fairly gentle-natured at heart, so.

...he has yet to really remember any of this though. The worst he's remembered is giving orders as king to have a particular individual that was apparently a threat to the kingdom killed. Which still makes him :/ but at least seems somewhat reasonably justified.

That will probably take someone who is not Akin, even if he thinks all lives have value.

Well, in Sabra he's (so far) better adjusted, so who knows. XD Though what would Akin think of that sort of reasoning, though? The whole idea of "I don't deserve to live because of the horrible things I've done" thing, that is.

I'm... not sure it would cut in the 'of course you do', unless Sion thought he was likely to repeat it and couldn't think of a way around it besides death. That would be an ethical dilemma for Akin.

I imagine it'd be something of an ethical dilemma for nearly anyone, really. >_>;;

....on a totally unrelated note though, since certain scenes in Tiassa made me think of such things, as of now if someone in Sabra interested her enough would Tazendra consider sleeping with a non-Dragaeran? (since... not everyone in Sabra is technically human/"easterner".....)

Maybe. She's still not very fond of very hairy people on a general aesthetic principle, so she'd probably find herself moved towards people who are more Dragaeran in her mind. And, while she's not Pel and his apparent reputation for having mistresses, she did seem to like a good carouse when she was working in the Phoenix Guard, so she probably doesn't have any real objection to having a lover in general, even if she admits to herself that the only man she's ever wanted to marry she cannot legally do so (and he'd say no, because Lyorn are hidebound like that).

It would probably have to happen before she gets the memory back of 'oh, yeah, bigotry'. (She's really only got two memories that has her think badly of Easterners -- she's cordial to the Warlock -- and the Fernarians could just be dismissed because they're barbarian invaders, so she's by nature prone to being ill disposed towards them. About the only other scene where she even thinks of them is a sort of spat with Zerika about Easterners living in the Empire on their way out to Deathsgate, since they apparently were never common in her barony.)

Which, I admit, attracts me for the 'what the hell was I thinking? o.O' angle, because I am a horrible player. It's kind of hard for me to figure because there's what Tazendra actually finds attractive now that she's lost a lot of personal bias against Easterners.

Hahaha yeah I suppose it could be interesting to see her reaction later if she did fool around a bit. XD Though as to the question of what she finds attractive, if all else fails there's always the option of copious amounts of booze. |Db

Ah, copious amounts of booze... creation of terrible decisions from all parties involved.

I shall have to ponder it. It could well be that she considers most of Sabra too darn short. Or perhaps that's not important to her.

Bah, if height were related to one's skill in such matters as transpire in one's bedchambers, why, then how would Tazendra account for her dear friend Pel's escapades?

Pel makes up in enthusiasm for the practice for whatever he may lack in statue.

Well, so then you agree that one's height is hardly the most important factor in choosing one's partner?

Well, you have nearly convinced me.

Ah, then we are in agreement?

So it seems we are.

I am glad to hear it.